Enlightened

Photographer: BC Shadow
Location: Manila

This shot was taken on March 28,2008 at around 8:30 pm while the 60th Earth hour was going on. The place was dark all main lights on this specific street we're turned off, except for those in the main road including the one in the photo.

I was amaze seeing this street light, I want to take pictures of what nature offers to our eyes. The beauty of this unusual moments, really enjoy taking pictures of those moments. The sky for another matter is such an amazing piece of art, you'll never going to miss a shot whenever you took it to the sky.

Pictures can have different meaning in it, that's why you can tell how the photographer feels through the picture he or she just took. The picture above I took that in a swift, while my dad is driving the van on the way home. We had a great family dinner out and then on the way home, we witness how the world celebrate its Earth hour. It was amazing and scary in some way, seeing those lights turn out resulting to a minimal site of darkness.

Create your own space and reveal what you feel is one phrase I can think off for a photo album. I'm a nurse by profession, I love sports and yes I love photography, well in a way that I'm amazed how people catch those moments of perfection. Moments of true love, friendship, generosity, helping each other during calamity and even a total down emotion of a person and so on.

Photography is a way of life, by means of taking those moments down memory lane and immortalizing it by paper.

Asuna

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Photographer: Enric Joseph Ilagan
Model: Asuna
Breed: Half Mongrel Half St. Bernard
Gender: Female
Characteristics: Eats anything edible, likes to bite her daughter's right leg


Asuna, as we call her derived from "Asunta" given by our dad and "Luna" given by my brother. At first we thought Asuna will grow as big as a St. Bernard because she is a mixed breed but her size didn't progress like that. Although she's not that big as we wanted to, she's very sweet , so beautiful and we love her very much. She never fails to erase our stresses whenever we cuddle her.

She gave birth for the first time on Sept. 11, 2007, 6 puppies all in all we took care of the puppies for 3 months they were cute and sweet like their mom. We decided to give all of them, unfortunately 1 of the puppy died it was inevitable. After a week the puppy we gave to our neighbor got lost and never came back and the 1 I gave to my friend died for unknown reason. There is 1 puppy left no one will like to get her because of her unusual size but we decided to keep her.

Asuna then gave birth for the second time April 15, 2008 there were 4 puppies, we're so happy another set of cute and cuddly puppies. Our father decided to give them all after 3 months, but we leave another one for us and gave the other 3 to the lucky recipients.

After that She gave birth again for the third time October 28, 2008 is the date approximately. Their were 4 cute puppies, we raise them for 3 months and give the 2 puppies, 1 to our Mom's friend and 1 for our brother's classmate. The other 1 died while we're raising them, she got so weak for unknown reason . The last 1 was given to our grandmother, we didn't keep any of them because we already have 4 dogs.

Asuna has a unique bark, there is an annoying sound in every end of her bark.

We think Asuna is ready to give birth once again, She's a good mother to her puppies, She's a great dog, a sweet friend.

Perfect Love

I remember my first day in college almost 3 to 4 years have passed and still the memories are fresh. Our sweet talks, the way we help each other, the smile you always wear, our walk together, the joy your friendship brings to me, our friendship I miss all of it.

When you left me I can't explain the sadness in my heart, the days of joy are gone, your smile vanished, I miss you Jenny.

I remember the first time I saw you I really want to meet you, I want to love you and that certain point of time. I met you while our class is having an activity, I came late so I decide to sit just beside the door. Then you approach me and we had a little chat, after that we became friends I'm so happy that I met you.

We became seatmates we talk to each other in our free time, you became my close friend, you reveal things about you and not telling your friends about it. You share your experience to me and ask my idea or advice about it I can't avoid falling for you. After class we walk together as we go home, I want to hold your hand. We go our separate ways after we cross the main road as you walk away I can't stop looking at you, I want to know your safe and when you look back you smile and wave your goodbye.

One of the most unforgettable memories we had is when we study our lesson together you teach me what you know, and I teach you what I know. I'm inspired whenever you're beside me, I really in to you that time but all we have is friendship. I admired everything about you, your different perception about things, your beauty and simplicity, I want you Jenny.

We became close friends, I know you already notice I'm getting too comfortable with you. I don't want to destroy our friendship, you're my treasure, I love you.

The most unforgettable moment of our friendship happened on my birthday. I celebrate that day with my family at our home, you greet me through text I can't explain how happy I was that day. I never imagine that our last day of friendship has come

The next day I want to talk to you, I want to thank you for making me happy but whenever I try to come closer you ignored me. After that going to school turns out to be normal for me, all I want is to go home. I changed drastically I become impatient, sad, aloof and hot tempered.

My world shreds into pieces, you continue to ignore me and never talk to me, after a few days we talk but not as friends like before but as classmates. We talk about subject matters, projects and assignments assigned to us. I like to ask you why did you do that, I want to blame you but I can't I was so in love with you I can't hurt you I rather blame myself for all this. You then answered my question just once, You told me you start feeling awkward having me around.

I know you felt sorry seeing me like this, I've become different. The truth is its my fault I just can't fight for what I feel, I just can't admit that I like you. I try to accept those things one by one as time passes by. Now I'm hoping I could see you, talk to you, and say sorry and maybe this time you'll let me fight for what I feel.

After that school year I didn't see Jenny until now, I hope I could find her. Everyday I plan to make myself a better person for her. Everyday I think how can I approach her, what will I say to restore our friendship. When we took our separate ways the last time it was so sad it ended with a bad memory, But now I'm living with the good memories we shared, when we're together.

Her name is Jenny, if soul mates were true I hope she is the one for me and if we're not meant for each other, I hope we're meant to be friends forever. I hope that I can tell her what I feel, I can tell her my sorry and thanks. For life is full of unexpected things and I'll be prepared when we meet again. I miss you Jenny, I will find you I know fate will definitely bring you back to me. I love you Ms. Jenny, my Perfect Love

Destroyed

Did you fall in love in the first time you met her eyes?

Did you see anybody except her during that exact moment of time?

Did you feel jealous while another man dance with her?

Did you hate her for not loving you back?

Do you remember the time you fell in love?

The thing I hate about love is the best thing about it, once you fall the only thing you can do is to accept it. When you fall in love it’s the best, whenever you see that special someone, talk to that special someone and think about that special someone; it’s like you’re floating in mid air in amidst of all the barriers you can tell that person everything.

For me it happened on a normal day when we had activity in our class, the chairs were placed in the sides I'm on the right side while she's in the left. The activity goes on as the participants are about to stand I caught her eyes or maybe she caught mine.

That exact moment I can't hear any sounds not even my own heartbeat; I can't see anyone but her as if we are so close to each other, As if I was in another dimension where I got to stand up walk near her and look at her for another 5 minutes or so and when I got back to reality she was staring at me as if she knew something happened inside me. And yeah right! I’m in love

Everybody was asking are you in love with her? Why are shaking when talking to her? Do you like her? Why don't you tell her? Is it true?

A secret won't be keep by 2 or 3 person unless the 2 of 3 or 1 of 2 is dead. Yeah! She heard it but I think she knew it from the time I look at her that activity day. I just don't want to tell her cause I know she'll feel awkward with me. And she did!

Feb 14: I don't have plans just going with it. While in class I heard someone brag I going to give her some flowers later, Wish I got the confidence and the courage he have. After the class everyone became busy buying flowers and stuff and giving it to their special someone, suddenly I heard my friend telling me to give flowers to her I neglect for I believe she won't even accept it.

Quickly I walk outside the school bought some flowers, 2 red roses 1 for my mom and 1 for her. I was waiting near their Home I knew she will be there in a minute or two. People looks at me and laugh some with sweet smile and some with teasing looks. Time pass by I'm getting more tense, what will I say? Will she gladly accept it? What will happen?

She came, she saw me, she saw the flowers and after that she frowned and then walks away slowly as if she didn’t see me. My heart crashed and burn, I don’t know what to say I can’t even move or I think even breath.


I told her slowly here please accept my flowers; She turned back, ignoring me not even saying a word while I shout her name 3 or 4 times. She passed the road and went home ignoring me, leaving me in abyss. I should’ve trusted my instinct I knew she wouldn’t accept this, from a guy like me who would’ve accept flowers for valentines.

After that rain start to fall I have my umbrella ready but I threw it to the ground, I was shock, I knew it all along she will not accept it no matter what, My mind got stuck I had silence in the middle of the road in a public place. I felt everybody is looking at me I wish they feel sorry but on that moment I feel everyone is laughing everyone is making fun of what happen to me. The most embarrassing and most heartbreaking event I had when I was young. Then I went home gave my mom flowers with a tiny smile on my face

I locked myself into my room and think what just happen, well I suddenly realize I was neglect. I have to cry it’s a normal reaction, I have to shout for my emotions to be release and I have to accept everything. I was neglect and definitely “Destroyed ".

After that I became shy whenever she is around, I don't have any courage left neither a word to say when she's in front of me. I really hate her so much, whenever she is around I walk away and then love still reigns I can’t fight it back but I think my I have no chance at all. Then at the prom night, after the ceremony I was seating alone, all my friends were dancing with someone they like. Then someone talked to me, told me that this is your chance this night will be a break for all of us, go get her and take her to the floor. Well I pulled all source of courage left inside of me walked near her and asked her for a dance I stand still until she gave her hand to me, where I'm getting this kind of confidence? I don't know it just pops out of me. Then I was surprise, though with a smirk she grabbed my hand and we went somewhere near the center.

The dance was so perfect the song were great, the ambiance was amazing, she's so beautiful then I tried to talk to her but her friends too loud teasing us. The only thing I heard was "waiting until college". She was a silent type girl, most of the people say a not so popular and attractive girl but I don’t take it, for me she was the most of all of them. Her beauty and the way she speaks make my heart tremble. No wonder I fell in love when that moment I look into her eyes, and I knew after that exact moment she knew I fell for her right away.
I really have a lot of things I regret, things I wish I have done and those things I wish I didn't but you'll just going to regret it when you already did it or the chance to do it passed by. Time is certainly moving in a way no one can stop. Love really moves like time, it’s like in a certain manner but different approach in our lives if we left behind, unnoticed or unattended these kind of opportunities and chances its can make better and in some ways can left us incapacitated in a way, leaving regrets born in our hearts.

I just remember

While thinking what will be my first blog, something hits my mind and it goes just like this.

In a rainy day approximately Aug - Sept. 2006;

I arrive at the college building around 7 am as usual, listen to lectures and as a typical student just want a day to end and just want to get home, sleep and hope for something different and more interesting subject tomorrow.

Around 4pm the sky was dark and the clouds pour rain all over manila, the class ends at 6pm.

We stay at the nearest Internet café, hoping for the rain to stop.

7pm: Rain becomes stronger and we decided to walk our way through it.

When we reach the main road, we were shocked it’s a near to a knee deep flood.

We aboard a public vehicle hoping to get us across to the other side but all alternate ways are flooded and the only way is to walk.

My friend took off his shoes and socks and decided to walk through the flood.

My other friend took off his shoes and socks as well, thinking I may have an open wound in my right toe I decided to walk with my socks and shoes.

We aim to reach the crossroad where public vehicles can pass and there is no flood.

We are 6 blocks away from our destination, it’s the longest walk ever with the flood beneath us and rain above us but I what popped into my mind is “ this is something different “.

as we pass the first block we noticed that the water is getting higher from a knee deep to a leg-deep but we still move on.

We passed the fourth block and we saw a car got stuck in the middle, the flood was waist deep and thank God that was the deepest.

In the fifth block we noticed a man got caught in a hole, we helped him get up and we continue as we are near to the road.

The final block were flood free and we decided to stop by a restaurant for us to clean up.

I get rid of my socks in the bathroom and wash my face, the walk was unbelievable.

After that we took our separate ways and went home

the next day we talk about what happened to us and end up as a laughing matter.

This story is simple but one great experience that’s incredibly unforgettable.

For a Normal day turned to a Walk in a flood and a shower in the rain.

Well for my blog, this is one of the thing " I just remember ".