Doubtful

I don't know if I can let go, I love you from the start
I was afraid of getting hurt, and hurt you as well
Scared of breaking our friendship, losing you
As doubt reigns on me, it left me silenced

I always wanted to find you, but you're always hiding
I know that I love you, but I can't tell you
I decided to keep silent, as you leave me behind
As doubt reigns on me, you left me all alone

They said I'm a loner, I almost agreed
They said I won't succeed, it left me thinking
They said I don't know anything, I'm stunned
As doubt reigns on me, Hope fades as well

You blinded me with beauty, to you I fall
You gave me true friendship, then take it all
You became close to me, then tore me apart
As you leave me, You're hurting my heart

I love you don't know what to do without you
I love you don't you feel what is true
I love you but I can't say it to you
As you tell me you love someone, still I love you

I must continue my life without you
Trials will be harder and tomorrow will be darker
I must forget about you and move on
Even my heart still beats for you

Love for you conquers me, I can't live without you
If you want me to forget you, I'll try
If you want me to be away, I will
If you want me to forgive, I definitely will
If you want me to stop loving you, that's one thing I will not do
Even death will not make me stop loving you
At first I'm in doubt, now I know you're my love
If ever at the end we are not for each other
At least a part of my heart belongs to you, and a moment of my life I loved you

What Love awaits a fatman?

Full of Disasters, never ending pain
An endless torture, wounds can't heal I gain
The stab to my heart, I feel it once again

Memories you left me, Eyes won't stop on crying
An irreversible damage, Heart is dying
Never can let you go, its so unfair why did you keep on lying

Freedom is unattainable, I'm now imprisoned
Actions made the impact, You're my angel of death
I feel this pain again, Wish I were stronger
Looking at you as you leave, I don't have you any longer
Searching for unwanted sorrow, Sadness finally found me

On the day I met you, My heart filled with hope
Never imagine you could twist me, I was so confuse and can't cope

Lately I wonder what love really is
Only few people knew the true image of this
Victory in the worst possibility, that's love for me
Ending is inevitable, for a man like me fell for it

Because a Fat Man Fails on Love


composed 9-12-06